1. Cherry Cheesecake Lollipop
Angel watches her suck the pink and red lollipop on the front steps of her high school and wishes he could steal the taste from her tongue.
He feels like a monster, but he also feels like a man for the first time in a long time, so he follows her home.
2. Triple Non-Fat Cafe Mocha
The Espresso Pump smells great, and if the demon inside enjoys the mix and mash of dozens of humans cramped into a small space right along with the aroma of brewed coffee, Angel ignores it. Buffy is at the counter, ordering them. . . something, and he watches her, sees her flip her hair back over her shoulder and laugh at something the barista says. He loves seeing her like this, happy and just as in her element as she'd be if they were alone in a dark graveyard.
She saunters back over with the hip swiveling walk of a girl who isn't quite a woman, and slides a cup of something that smells like coffee and chocolate toward him.
"I didn't know what you like, so I just got you the same as me," she says, a slight frown marring the carefree expression from before and he smiles, grabs her hand and tries to put it back.
"It's fine. I can't really taste it anyway."
He immediately recognizes that it was the exact wrong thing to say.
3. Taco Bell Taco Supreme
Fred still won't come out of her room and Angel knows he should just leave her alone, after the trauma she's been through, but he doesn't think he'll be able to stand the smell for much longer. Everyone keeps bringing her bags of tacos and he guesses she eats them but the empty bags never make it out and he's afraid there will be rodents soon.
And the thing is, he's eaten rats, sure, but he doesn't want to live with them-- even if they do smell better than Fred's tacos.
4. Marshmallow Peeps
It's Connor's first Easter, or at least it would have been if not for Wesley, and Angel stares at the bright hues of the candy and wonders. They're clearly made of pure sugar and Angel is pretty sure that Cordelia would classify them as kiddie crack (whatever that means) but he thinks that they are probably made to melt on a warm tongue. And they look sort of scary, and definitely not nutritious, but they remind Angel of all of the things his son will never get to taste. They remind him that he will never get to live through his son, just as his father never got to live through him and Angel doesn't care that it's Easter; some things are unforgivable.
5. Catherine Chase's Secret Recipe Peanut Butter Oatmeal Cookies
When Cordy dies, Angel begins a list of all of her favorite things.
1)The silver initial necklace from Tiffany's that her father gave her, before the trouble with the IRS (he isn't sure how she kept that out of the hands of the reposessors). 2)The shoes that she spent her entire first paycheck on and then refused to wear (he could never remember the designer, and that bothers him now). 3)My Fair Lady (he made her watch it the first time and, unlike Wesley, wasn't surprised when she loved it). 4)A men's blue jacket, size medium (he saw her swipe it from Doyle's apartment, but he never said anything). 5)Her mother's secret recipe peanut butter oatmeal cookies (he tried to replicate them after she mentioned it once, in passing, and he remembers the look of revulsion that passed over her face when she bit in but it's the other look she gave him after that he really remembers. . .
The End